recovering from feeling burned out - system is running on low power

Recovery isn’t linear in the most cases and recently I felt pretty burned out and tired and while I’m still sleepy and sometimes a bit low performing in terms of productive things, I’ll try to recap in this post how that has happend and what possible ways out of this may be. how did this happen? This year was full of amazing things, recapping this in a few bullets: * I got my first full-time job * I left uni for a job * I moved into a new flat share * I started to live in a city with even more friends I care about * I finally overcame my depressed episode entirely * cutted out toxic people of my life * and started to build healthy and caring relationships (<3!
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LXDE & i3wm headcanon

Long story short I sent in my MacBook to Apple Care again recently, experiencing some major display issues, so that leaves me with having to use my spare laptop, a somewhat 2013-ish ThinkPad x230 and while I generally like that machine, I’ll probably have to upgrade the screen to somewhat FHD/2k (probably 13.3 inch having to cut the bezel as well) and upgrade the keyboard with a x220 one in the near future since a 1366x768px display isn’t usable anymore in 2018.
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Inside the Tardis: Reusing a Apple Time Capsule (A1355) from 2009

Since I needed to come up with a decent on-site backup solution beside having my two off-site backup servers up and running, and having to work with external HDDs is not an option, I eventually started to look out for an NAS device to store my backups on. First I considered that I wanted to build such a device from scratch, possibly putting inside some undervolted AMD CPU, eventually soldered on a ITX form factor mainboard having plenty of S-ATA slots, at least two NIC and round about 8GB of RAM.
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An Adorable Way to Open Doors

As soon as @bourryto and I moved into our flat share, we wanted to improve our key sharing and door opening concept, especially since I tend to forget my keys quite a lot. We live on the third floor of a four floor appartment building, so we were able to change the key cylinder of our appartment itself but obviously not the one being used for opening the front door.
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Top-Drops and Tops Experiencing Panic Attacks in BDSM

Some years ago I’ve shared a zine about panic attacks with a few friends of mine. I got diagnosed with a panic and anxiety disorder in 2015 and since then I made tons of experiences with having to deal with panic and anxiety, whilst being part of the kink community. Let’s talk about experiencing panic attacks while playing as a top! Assumptions & Problematic Things Inside the Community A major problem of discussing panic attacks and BDSM is, that there are plenty of toxic assumptions within large parts of the scene leading to a mostly binary point of view on some issues.
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Blogging on an iPad using Git & Hugo

I had to hand in my main laptop to service recently since I have experienced some GPU errors and keys refusing to work as they should. Having given away my 2012 11’ MacBook Air I haven’t had a decent spare device to write fiction ad blogposts on, not to think of light code work in the first place. So I went shopping and since I did not felt comfortable buying a cheapish or used laptop (probably ThinkPad), I went with an 2018ish iPad teamed up with an Apple Pencil, since that would be a device fitting way better into my set-up than a laptop I would stop using when my main laptop would be back in my backpack.
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Refreshing my Hackintosh Build

I started building hackintoshes back in high school because at that time I simply couldn’t afford buying anything else than a hackintosh build based on used components. In 2011 my main reason to switch from a Linux to a Mac machine was, that I had to run graphics design programs on my computers and seven years later barely a thing has changed in terms that there’s still no Adobe CC for Linux systems, I still enthusiastically prefer not to use Windows for anything else than casual gaming, except that while I am happy using my second MacBook (after having had a 2012 Air for literally years, I switched to a MacBook Pro 2017 last December), Apple somehow fails at providing a decent line-up in terms of desktop macintosh.
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Bookish - A Booktracker in Rust

I always wanted to have a decent booktracker to track my reading habits in terms of genres, how much I read per month and at what time I do so, so I decided to at least plan some UX/UI things for such a project today and will probably start developing this as a CLI-Application during this weekend. I wouldn’t have picked up this idea without having found a habit tracker made by @blinry, so kudos, without their project this one would probably have never existed at this time and some of my UX/UI and usability components may also be influenced by their take on tracking habits.
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Pansexual and Lesbian?

Some weeks ago someone asked me via one of those anonymous ask inboxes how it fits together to be pansexual and lesbian at the same time and if those two terms aren’t exclusionary to the other. I feel that this assumption is deeply linked to a few misconceptions a normative society makes about attraction. the misconception that romantic and sexual attraction don’t neccesarily have to overlap or be the same.
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Blåvand

I went to Blåvand with friends this weekend and it feels kind of relieving and weird at the same time. Relieving, because the sea and solitude is giving me so much live and such a piece of mind that I am finally writing again and the ice desert of feeling either too depressed or too distant to write has melted down, so the nice mountain shaped full of plot holes and a beautiful diversity of idea became visible again.
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