Ten years ago, in December 2008 I found a microblogging service in a fanfiction community I was into. My cousin was over at our place for Christmas celebrations and we were casually browsing the first holiday sale at steam and I eventually ended up buying Portal and signing up to tumblr that evening. I forgot that I had an account at first, but two years later that website has become a huge part of my life and became very important to me accompanying me through my teens.
So, I (and some people in my polycule) spontaneously decided to organize a Relationship Anarchy session at the #35c3 and it’ll take place at Day 1 from 15:00 to 17:00 (Seminar Room 14-15). Today I felt like writing a brief introduction to the session itself, about what Relationship Anarchy is all about, and link a few resources so people who aren’t familiar with that are able to do their own research.
Recently I worked in quite a few projects aiming at empowering people, such as students but also underrepresented groups in the industry, to code. One of the larger ones is probably Jugend Hackt, a Hackathon for teens between 13 and 19, where I mentored a group in its Berlin edition earlier this year. In the past I had mentored groups of high school students as well, trying to hand over the projects I did at my former school nearly nine years ago to a newer Generation of students, but they ended up employing a network administrator instead of sticking with the concept of a entirely student run schools network, like it was nine years ago.
After having spent most of 2018 working in my first post-uni Job at Port Zero as a Software and System Engineer, I eventually had my exit talk a few days ago aiming for a new position somewhere else in 2019. A month ago I blogged about how I felt burned out and tired being involved in two major project having had a hard time keeping up with them, despite working overtime, and what I’ve learned in those stressful days, so last month I tried to fix and evaluate if I’m able to at least fix certain problems I was having or if I should be honest to myself, that I may not be the type of person who enjoys consulting work that much.
Since I felt overwhelmed and anxious by my workload during the last weeks I decided to do a short trip to Paris on my own. I literally booked the flight, left my work on time on my last day before vacation, boarded a plane and arrived at Paris two hours later. It was one of the most calming and self-careish things to do, to travel on my own and not having to care about my Spoons, because usually, I feel way more exhausted after going on vacation leave then I do before, which is, mostly, because I’m introvert and wallflowerish af and not really a peoples girl.
Recovery isn’t linear in the most cases and recently I felt pretty burned out and tired and while I’m still sleepy and sometimes a bit low performing in terms of productive things, I’ll try to recap in this post how that has happend and what possible ways out of this may be. how did this happen? This year was full of amazing things, recapping this in a few bullets: * I got my first full-time job * I left uni for a job * I moved into a new flat share * I started to live in a city with even more friends I care about * I finally overcame my depressed episode entirely * cutted out toxic people of my life * and started to build healthy and caring relationships (<3!
Long story short I sent in my MacBook to Apple Care again recently, experiencing some major display issues, so that leaves me with having to use my spare laptop, a somewhat 2013-ish ThinkPad x230 and while I generally like that machine, I’ll probably have to upgrade the screen to somewhat FHD/2k (probably 13.3 inch having to cut the bezel as well) and upgrade the keyboard with a x220 one in the near future since a 1366x768px display isn’t usable anymore in 2018.
Since I needed to come up with a decent on-site backup solution beside having my two off-site backup servers up and running, and having to work with external HDDs is not an option, I eventually started to look out for an NAS device to store my backups on. First I considered that I wanted to build such a device from scratch, possibly putting inside some undervolted AMD CPU, eventually soldered on a ITX form factor mainboard having plenty of S-ATA slots, at least two NIC and round about 8GB of RAM.
As soon as @bourryto and I moved into our flat share, we wanted to improve our key sharing and door opening concept, especially since I tend to forget my keys quite a lot. We live on the third floor of a four floor appartment building, so we were able to change the key cylinder of our appartment itself but obviously not the one being used for opening the front door.
Some years ago I’ve shared a zine about panic attacks with a few friends of mine. I got diagnosed with a panic and anxiety disorder in 2015 and since then I made tons of experiences with having to deal with panic and anxiety, whilst being part of the kink community. Let’s talk about experiencing panic attacks while playing as a top! Assumptions & Problematic Things Inside the Community A major problem of discussing panic attacks and BDSM is, that there are plenty of toxic assumptions within large parts of the scene leading to a mostly binary point of view on some issues.