More than ten years ago, I coded my first homepage and uploaded it to a Web space my former school provided. I graduated there a while ago and to make sure that my former schools mail address does not get deleted, I have to log into their web services once a year. However, every time I do so, all things tech are getting worse. Shortly after I graduated they banned Smartphone, about a year later they restricted students internet access not only, which is from an educational stance an okayish thing to do, by blacklisting certain sites but by providing a locked-by-default access where students have to ask for a code to get an hour of internet.
So there’s this Things I Don’t Know as of 2018 blog post by Dan Abramov who works on React and while I probably am, as a queer neurodivergent trans woman in tech, in a much more difficult (read to some extend more vulnearable, since having my skills questioned in certain situations is an awful experience I tend to make a lot) place then they are, I feel like sharing the things I want to be better at is helpful for newcomers and starters in this field, since there are a lot of narratives picturing a toxic and harmful programming culture (~real~ programmers™️) rather than empowering one.
Our door management system adoorabell was meant to be a Python/Flask application at first, so people would be able, if they’re inside our home network, to open our front door via their web browser by opening a specific URL. This approach worked fine at first, but due to some technical changes in our network and since we live on the third floor some devices had a hard time connecting to our local WiFi while standing in front of our door.
I finally went to the Rainbow Arcade exhibition in the Schwules Museum* Berlin (Gay Museum Berlin) and it was amazing. I went there spontaneously because I got hyped about video games as the Hugvengers Podcast went live on Twitch playing Marvel’s Spider-Man on a PS4. If you don’t know that geeky MCU Podcast, some friends of mine are involved with, yet, and I think you definitely should know that one, have a listen here.
Ten years ago, in December 2008 I found a microblogging service in a fanfiction community I was into. My cousin was over at our place for Christmas celebrations and we were casually browsing the first holiday sale at steam and I eventually ended up buying Portal and signing up to tumblr that evening. I forgot that I had an account at first, but two years later that website has become a huge part of my life and became very important to me accompanying me through my teens.
So, I (and some people in my polycule) spontaneously decided to organize a Relationship Anarchy session at the #35c3 and it’ll take place at Day 1 from 15:00 to 17:00 (Seminar Room 14-15). Today I felt like writing a brief introduction to the session itself, about what Relationship Anarchy is all about, and link a few resources so people who aren’t familiar with that are able to do their own research.
Recently I worked in quite a few projects aiming at empowering people, such as students but also underrepresented groups in the industry, to code. One of the larger ones is probably Jugend Hackt, a Hackathon for teens between 13 and 19, where I mentored a group in its Berlin edition earlier this year. In the past I had mentored groups of high school students as well, trying to hand over the projects I did at my former school nearly nine years ago to a newer Generation of students, but they ended up employing a network administrator instead of sticking with the concept of a entirely student run schools network, like it was nine years ago.
After having spent most of 2018 working in my first post-uni Job at Port Zero as a Software and System Engineer, I eventually had my exit talk a few days ago aiming for a new position somewhere else in 2019. A month ago I blogged about how I felt burned out and tired being involved in two major project having had a hard time keeping up with them, despite working overtime, and what I’ve learned in those stressful days, so last month I tried to fix and evaluate if I’m able to at least fix certain problems I was having or if I should be honest to myself, that I may not be the type of person who enjoys consulting work that much.
Since I felt overwhelmed and anxious by my workload during the last weeks I decided to do a short trip to Paris on my own. I literally booked the flight, left my work on time on my last day before vacation, boarded a plane and arrived at Paris two hours later. It was one of the most calming and self-careish things to do, to travel on my own and not having to care about my Spoons, because usually, I feel way more exhausted after going on vacation leave then I do before, which is, mostly, because I’m introvert and wallflowerish af and not really a peoples girl.
Recovery isn’t linear in the most cases and recently I felt pretty burned out and tired and while I’m still sleepy and sometimes a bit low performing in terms of productive things, I’ll try to recap in this post how that has happend and what possible ways out of this may be. how did this happen? This year was full of amazing things, recapping this in a few bullets: * I got my first full-time job * I left uni for a job * I moved into a new flat share * I started to live in a city with even more friends I care about * I finally overcame my depressed episode entirely * cutted out toxic people of my life * and started to build healthy and caring relationships (<3!